When I say....

He Knows My Name!

I have a Father that I can turn to, even if everybody fails me.
I have a Father that gives me clarity, even if I don’t see it.
I have a Father who simply loves me for who I am!
He sees each tear that falls, and he hears me when I call.

Isn’t God so amazing?

Rediscover You

Written by Starfield

I need to just admit
my faith is paper thin
I’m feeling so burned out
On religion

I say an empty prayer
I sing a tired song
I need to just admit that the passion’s gone

And I want to get it back

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I’m here
Like I’m searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

I want to learn to pray
The way that David prayed
I want my soul to burn when I hear Your name
I want to feel like new
I want to hunger for you
Bring me back to life like only You can do
Cause I don’t want to stay the same

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I’m here
Like I’m searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move
Help me rediscover You

Lord, I want to be Yours today
I want to know the passion of the saints
And how they were changed

You told me
Look for You and I will find
So I’m here
Like I’m searching for the first time
Revive me, Jesus
Make this cold heart start to move

I want to burn for You
Bring me back to life, Jesus
Help me rediscover You

Reflection No. 3

Its funny to read earlier entries, mainly because if I compare my past and present self, I’ve evolved into such a surprising person. What do I notice? Some things remain the same. Most things, however, have done a 180.

My view on relationships has changed, for the better.
I have learned the difference between Opportunity VS. Destiny.
I am a hot-tempered woman, and for the first time in my life, I am trying not to be.
I have grown much more vulnerable and soft, thanks to God, and thanks to A.
I have cried so much in 2010. It’s ridiculous.
I still have uncertainty about the future, but I have learned that God never forgets his promises, and always keeps his promises. I, am not forgotten by Him.
I have also learned that Love IS possible. Ha, who would’ve thunk, that my planets would line up in this department.

I’m sure there is more.. I’ll keep writing.

sigh. the game of life.

mirrors are funny.

To catch myself doing the complete opposite of my reflection is bizarre. When other people see me as I preach about this and that while walking about it differently is also funny. 

Oh life. Oh Jane. Oh Lord. When did I stray from my integrity?

“So whats the catch?”

cont’d from dilemma**

The truth is, life is fair, whether we like it or not.

The answer is simple:

I can’t have everything in the world because I love God too much.

Its as simple as that. I have faith - strong faith - that my one will be much greater and God will provide and never compromise. At the same time, it is my duty to be wise and to be responsible to never yolk myself with somebody less than what I know God can provide. Ladies, that means non-christians. If you know in your gut feeling that you wish he can be just a little bit more, listen to yourself, trust yourself, and above all, trust in the Lord Almighty. He is the alpha, omega, beginning and end. Your love for God is bigger than you think. Always think twice.

dilemma

What do you do when there is an exceptional guy that wants to be your Knight in Shining Armor, and all that there’s missing is his belief in Christianity?

Some of these Knights in Shining Armor have an open heart and they are willing to learn without you compromising anything. The thing is, who says that they won’t make you compromise when you seal the deal with marriage?

I have seen some marriages that work and lead these men to Christ on a genuine level, but leading up to that point, how many scars did it have to take to get to that point? I have seen marriages that fall apart because the values between two sides conflict and evidently make the family crumble. I have also seen Christian marriages that do not work either and are more dysfunctional than most families.

I must admit, some non-Christian guys treat their significant others a hundred times better than Christian guys and ultimately make the women happier for the rest of their lives. 

So what’s the catch? There’s definitely a possibility for all of us to have a miserable marriage whether we avoid non-Christians or not.

We all know the answer to the problem: Choose wisely with God’s guidance and pray for your future spouse and avoid conflict if you can. I may sound a bit pessimistic, but really, its been an issue to many people I know, and let’s be honest here… its hard being a Christian woman, or a Christian man. The world is like a buffet, and if we don’t watch what we eat, we can probably lose our figure. 

The beautiful thing about being a Christian though is that you have this sense of peace that most people don’t have. The more and more I talk to non-believers, it never fails to amaze me how much I have to be thankful for. Life is even worse without God in the picture, and because of this I feel for my friends and have an urge to pray for them. If you can share that with your spouse and be at peace on a spiritual and worldly level, isn’t that worth the wait?

sigh… what a tricky life we live in.