the art of losing myself.: Archive

Sep 4th

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When I say.... →

jeremypassion: I’m A Christian by Maya Angelou When I say … “I am a Christian,” I’m not shouting “I’m clean livin’. I’m whispering “I was lost, Now I’m found and forgiven.” When I say .”I am a Christian,” I don’t speak of this with pride. I’m confessing that I stumble, And need CHRIST to be my…

Aug 16th

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He Knows My Name!

I have a Father that I can turn to, even if everybody fails me. I have a Father that gives me clarity, even if I don’t see it. I have a Father who simply loves me for who I am! He sees each tear that falls, and he hears me when I call. Isn’t God so amazing?

Aug 9th

Aug 3rd

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Rediscover You

Written by Starfield I need to just admit my faith is paper thin I’m feeling so burned out On religion I say an empty prayer I sing a tired song I need to just admit that the passion’s gone And I want to get it back You told me Look for You and I will find So I’m here Like I’m searching for the first time Revive me, Jesus Make this cold heart start to move Help me...

Apr 26th

Reflection No. 3

Its funny to read earlier entries, mainly because if I compare my past and present self, I’ve evolved into such a surprising person. What do I notice? Some things remain the same. Most things, however, have done a 180. My view on relationships has changed, for the better. I have learned the difference between Opportunity VS. Destiny. I am a hot-tempered woman, and for the first time in my...

Dec 16th

mirrors are funny.

To catch myself doing the complete opposite of my reflection is bizarre. When other people see me as I preach about this and that while walking about it differently is also funny. Oh life. Oh Jane. Oh Lord. When did I stray from my integrity?

Jul 22nd

"So whats the catch?"

cont’d from dilemma** The truth is, life is fair, whether we like it or not. The answer is simple: I can’t have everything in the world because I love God too much. Its as simple as that. I have faith - strong faith - that my one will be much greater and God will provide and never compromise. At the same time, it is my duty to be wise and to be responsible to never yolk myself with...

Jun 2nd

dilemma

What do you do when there is an exceptional guy that wants to be your Knight in Shining Armor, and all that there’s missing is his belief in Christianity? Some of these Knights in Shining Armor have an open heart and they are willing to learn without you compromising anything. The thing is, who says that they won’t make you compromise when you seal the deal with marriage? I have seen...

May 22nd

Apr 27th

may new discoveries come my way.

I never thought He could stop everything so abruptly, but I guess its his way of keepin’ it spicy. I admit, it was hard for me to accept the fact that everything I worked for had to come to a halt. So many tears have fallen since the beginning of this journey, and I feel like I’ve developed such a vulnerable heart, which is so unlike me. If you know me well, I tend to be a headstrong...

Apr 27th

the falls.

Its strange how the phases in life seem predictable, but in that prediction there is so much that goes on and its hard to accept the situation when it occurs. As much as I need to let go, I also need to see that I’m gaining. As much as I have fears about approaching something new, this is where I will grow thick skin… alone. As much as I don’t want to let go for the sake of...

Apr 13th

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Apr 11th

stuffy.

Its 5:30 AM and its ridiculous that I am unable to sleep. Sometimes I believe that in times like these I’m called to pray. Most of the time, I just can’t sleep and its as simple as that. Tonight is one of those simple, matter-of-fact whatevers. I’m beginning to have a mind that is constantly thinking about what-ifs, should’ve-could’ves and whatnot. Its not the most...

Apr 8th

time to move on.

I don’t feel so bad about the situation anymore. If there’s 10% missing between two people, then obviously, its not something that you should overlook. Even though its almost right, its not right. The act of two people coming together, being comfortable, being natural, and sincerely being who you are without a sense of shame… that itself is a miracle. Love, is a miracle....

Apr 7th

Apr 6th

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You wanna know why girls don't wanna start a...

iseeyoueverywhere: mjoyy: mrsbooj: (via trisherrr) BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHHHA, I never realized that, but its so true.

Apr 5th

Thank God its a Good Friday.

You tore the veil You made a way When you said that “it is done” Lord, you’ve touched my heart once again. No matter how many times I stray, lately, you’ve been calling me and finding me. This has never happened to me before where you’ve repeatedly tugged at my heart, and I think it is time for me to take you more seriously than ever. You are my foundation and its...

Apr 3rd

Mar 23rd

my new baby!

Introducing… Diana Mini Lomo Camera! I didn’t buy the flash, but sooner or later I will. Ain’t it cute?

Mar 18th

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Mar 16th

top ten.

Destinations in which I will actively try to see in my lifetime: 1. Thailand I just want to visit the elephant reserves and learn how to cook authentic Thai cuisine and chill on a boat. The people seem very interesting as well. 2. Korea Funny, I’ve never been to my motherland, but I will someday. 3. Spain I want to complete a pilgrimage of La Santiago de Compostela. If you don’t know...

Mar 14th

Mar 13th

running.

***This is a stupid post. If you don’t like wasting time, then don’t read this. Trust me. Exercise… To me, its incredibly important to be healthy, but seriously, its the most annoying thing that I have to do everyday. Why do I find it annoying? because I have to sweat, I have to push my body to its limits, and I always feel like giving up all the time. Its mentally challenging,...

Mar 12th

deserving.

A girls gotta keep her dignity and her heart in place. Its time to sit back and let things go. I’ve learned enough.

Mar 7th

... and so it ends.

My goodness. What a journey. This audition tour has been far more challenging than I ever expected. I had my very last audition today in Manhattan, and it was probably the scariest/most exciting performance of my life. Words cannot describe how many emotions I felt today. Its unbelievable! On my way home, my legs were still shaking because I felt like I rode a rollercoaster all day as I finished...

Mar 5th

now THAT'S what I'm talkin' about!

What an inspiration. Finally, a Korean (and an honorary Canadian) wins an Olympic Gold Medal for women’s figure skating. When I watched her receive the medal and singing to our Korean national anthem, I put myself in her shoes. I chuckled at myself and said, “If YuNa can do, I can do it.”

Feb 26th

Jane Joon Mee Yang is feeling more inadequate than ever. With hopes of entering NYC for grad school, I am beginning to realize that getting there isn’t impossible, but managing to survive is a whole ‘nother level. The competitive pressure is on now, and I’m holding on for dear life. Lord, you put me here. I’m at the end of my rope, but your promises await, even if I fail...

Feb 22nd

memories.

Memories can be a good thing, and memories can be a horrid curse. Engraved in my brain are such good times, but the haunting ones seem to get the best of me. Is it even possible to ask God to burn these repeating moments from my brain? I guess I shouldn’t question God. I’ll ask Him anyway. Maybe these memories keep coming up because a) I haven’t reconciled b) I was hurt so...

Feb 18th

Feb 15th

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thwarted.

Sometimes, you never know why you feel weak, and why you keep covering up a problem through an area of certain expertise. God challenges people when they invite him into their lives completely. In order to shape you, he thwarts a weakness that you have, and there’s no way of getting out of it. You feel like you lost something, and to the best of your ability you start covering it up, but as...

Feb 4th

Priscilla Ahn - Dream There’s an old dream...

Feb 1st

Wild at Heart

Written by John Eldredge Folks, I’m learning about MEN; what makes a man, what hinders a man from being full in his ambitions and desires, why they feel a certain way, why they are they way they are… etc. Women, I’m telling you, you need to read this book. Maybe its because I have an older brother, but I felt as if I knew a lot of things about men compared to other girls. My...

Jan 29th

“The end of a matter is better than its beginning. - Ecclesiastes 7:8 My heart...”

– God, I’m in it for the long haul. See you at the finish line.

Jan 25th

Dean Martin - “I left my Heart in San...

Jan 23rd

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I had a dream :)

So earlier today I was taking a nap. It was the best nap ever. Wanna know why? I had one puppy and one kitty in my dream!!! It was the sweetest thing ever. So.. here are my imaginary pet names: Puppy Kamja (“potato”) Tucker Scooter Oppa (brother) Kitty Lion Mo Wayne… Kitty… (I’m running out of ideas. I’ll work on it). Some of these are bizarre names, but I...

Jan 14th

John Mayer, Battle Studies “Perfectly...

Jan 12th

i miss home

I’m starting to get homesick. As much as I love being with my parents, exploring NYC and stuff, I’m really tired right now, hahaha. I miss my girls. I miss my homeboys. I miss nice apartments vs. nasty NYC apartments. I miss poutine. I miss etobicoke. I miss my brother. sigh. Toronto’s where my heart is.

Jan 12th

Jan 8th

Jan 7th

guess what.

So… my parents are moving to New York. Sick? Epic? Crazy? Thanks God. You rock our world. Watch out NYC, the Yangsters are coming your way.

Jan 7th

Midori Live at Carnegie Hall Beethoven - Sonata...

Jan 5th

Jan 2nd

“But it was your own eyes that saw all these great things the Lord has done. -...”

– Reflect, Realize, Appreciate. Thank you, 2009. Hello, 2010. Ready for a wild ride? Let’s do this. Love y’all - Janey

Jan 1st

velkom to mother-merika!

I am finally here! It’s been such a journey just to get to New Jersey where my parents live; probably the longest 2 weeks I’ve had in a long time. I still couldn’t get my g1 written. dang. It feels so good to be with my umma & appa again. I missed them so much, and when I was in Toronto, I would cry sometimes because I felt like I didn’t have them there with me to...

Dec 24th

packing...

I’m so sad to be packing up all my stuff, leaving my room empty with only the boxes ready to stow away in a couple of months for my brother to move. I’m gonna miss oppa, a lot :( I’m still wondering what’s gonna happen when i come back in March. I love it when I don’t know what to do with myself. That may be the most exciting time because eventually things will fall...

Dec 19th

sense of nervousness

I’m feeling more nervous than ever for the future and how I’m going to go through these 5 auditions. I feel so unprepared its not even funny. *Siiiigh* What am I gonna do with myself. Chronic issues for musicians: lack of self-confidence.

Dec 15th

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