… and so it ends.

My goodness. What a journey. This audition tour has been far more challenging than I ever expected. I had my very last audition today in Manhattan, and it was probably the scariest/most exciting performance of my life. Words cannot describe how many emotions I felt today. Its unbelievable!

On my way home, my legs were still shaking because I felt like I rode a rollercoaster all day as I finished my last stretch of this journey. When I got home, I went straight to my bedroom because I knew I had to give thanks to the one that sent me here to do this. I got down on my knees and all I did was sing, pray and weep in front of the Lord because I have never felt so grateful for hardship. My favorite praise song says, “In the chaos, In confusion I know you’re sovereign still.” Throughout this year, I have slowly learned that God is my backbone and the rock in my life. He guards my heart, yet he lets me feel. He holds me tight, and yet I express all my anger and frustration. Like a child that refuses to be held by their parent, God knew that I needed discipline, love, and a bit of a push to grow.

He is perfect. He is sovereign, and He is my Father.

In the chaos, in confusion
I know You’re Sovereign still
In the moment of my weakness
You give me grace to do Your will

When You call I won’t delay
This my song through all my days

All my delight is in You Lord
All of my hope, all of my strength
All my delight is in You Lord Forevermore